† WeiShan †

2010-03-20T21:46:00.001+08:00

Just when i thought everything is okay...

Guess its me yea...
need some time alone...
sighs...

2010-03-19T12:40:00.002+08:00

Just got my fucked up hair cut!!
the woman dat cut my hair isnt there,
then his asshole aunty keep drag me cut..
Fuck! ask me wan cut how wan cut how,
end up nothing like i wanted!!!
damn you, cant cut, dunno how to cut den dun cut lar!!
Quit please!!

Fuck out of hair-cutting career!!

Get Out Of My Life!!

2010-03-16T01:52:00.003+08:00

This Is My Life, I Have The Rights To Choose What I Want And You Cant Stop Me!! So FUCK OFF!! DAMN IT!! Are you all really my parents?! Especially my dad, am i really made by you?! If yes den why the hell are you treating me this way?! When's the last time you chat with me?! or even talked to me?? Every now and then since months ago, whenever you open your mouth to me is to find faults in me and start a freaking unreasonable quarrel!!

I dun see you doing this to Big sis or 2nd bro..

so its just me eh?!

Damn!!

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School's freaking boring...
Chinese intensive.. MrsMok go mix class with 5n1.
zzz...
i knew i never ever mix well with them..
damn my luck that they sat right behind me and i got disturb as usual..
fucking immatures.. get a life please...
argg!!

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Tuesday, March 16 2010

Happy Birthday ChenZi Bro!!

totally not feeling well now,
so didnt go school today..
wdv, to hell with it!
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imisshersomuch <3

crap....

2010-03-06T00:59:00.002+08:00

School today is really a waste of time..
first got Ms cheong making us walk to de lab and back to class repeatedly for like more than a period... zzz.. just went i am improving on phys she pulls this kind of shit..
totally no mood for this kind of crap...
den slept totally for chinese... teacher was totally having a lecture class, just talk de...
cant help but with nothing to do when i am tired, i really drop dead...
and de position i am sitting is a damn freaking sauna!
2hour of chinese, i only start work at de last 30min... zzz
sory, i dun mean to, its just too tiring...

den got class cheer prac...
fucked up...
so many of them didnt turn up..
thankyou to those that came and participate..
we had good and bad times..
hope we can do well on actual day,
and sat and sun please all come... sighs...

was pissed, but Cheefong and Sherilyn came to sch!!
did our stuffs again, nv fail to laugh when we are together..
just not as bonkers as aways..
but still fun fun fun!
thanks! =]

den things happen.. super unhappy...
accusing me is de last thing i will like people to do...
jumping in to conclusion and stuff... zzz...
feeling damn fucked up now...
head hurts like hell...
feel like i will vomit anytime..
its been like that for the past few days..
on and off and on and off...
damn....

4e2 Cheer!

2010-03-04T23:52:00.002+08:00

Today is E-learning day,
so no school... yay?
well, still woke up early in the morning..
but pig back after awhile... =x

woke up at 10am after that..
slacked & stone-ed till 11.30...
start to prepare to go cck stadium
for class cheer practice =)
very looking forward to it..

prepared, went, reached...
well, not all came.. but its a okay amount..
and start to see the class conditions
with my own eyes.. so know what is
happening myself.. a neutral stance...
de mood there isnt very nice...
only a few that is willing to get hype...

so decided to just help them up..
we hav got lots of improvements to do..
with time running out, we really got to rush things..
well, after some discussion, finally got to get them
moving into de beat.. i got to familiarise myself with
de steps as i work with khoirul and joanne, ( you guys were great man =] ) so was able to help
show what is going on and stuff.. well, overall de
class is really fun, just dun get pulled down by unessasary
crap.. =)
we are really running out of time.. so lets put in our best alright!
lets not let others get away your Champ title!!
i know you all can do it de... =)
Gambateh!!! ~
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feeling very very suckish now...
all the complied mix feelings...
lost track of reality...
so fucked up...

Death..

2010-03-03T14:22:00.002+08:00

- La Muerte -

sighs....

2010-03-02T13:52:00.000+08:00

So Bored!

Sighs..

Awesomely Awesome!! =D

2010-03-01T01:21:00.005+08:00

Awesomely Awesome!! =D

Lets call it Sunday FunFun Day =P

Went to Sherilyn's Condo to hang out again!

met Cheefong to hav lunch at BK first,

den bused over =)

When we reach, we met Sherilyn on the way

to her house. got to know that she actually need to

go Annie's house first before meeting us, but we end up

just go skate and play stright..

So after awhile, Sherilyn went up to Annie's house.

not long after, they came down together!! =D

haha, Awesome 4 =x

had loads of fun! the condo like got a lot of weird place,

we climbed down to this place.. looks like a small forest..

den Sherilyn and Annie hide Cheefong's shoe inside =.=

haha! was damn fun =)

Then we keep skating and playing!

all the way till 5plus, den we chilled in this study room,

kinda like a meeting room, main point is got air-con lar,

cause was a hot day.. x.x

Den we played True or Dare! Spin the bottle style =D

Super Super Duper Hilarious!! cant say =)

well, something rather surprising and nice happen lar =x

But after awhile Annie hav to leave for family dinner,

so we continue play, super super crazy!!! haha!!!

i got so much so much dares lar!! =.=

play till around 7, den we went back skate and play.

then Annie came back =]

but can really tell something is wrong.. she's very moody... sighs.. =(

but they all got to go at around 8, so yea.. we left at 8..

so Me and CF bused back wm and had dinner. went carpark

to chat for 30mins or so...

yeap, den home =)

dun wan the day to end... sighs...

but well, they will come again =)

now is super tired, but still msn convo with S and CF!

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Yay! Physical Training!

2010-02-26T21:21:00.003+08:00

Finally its friday! =D
haha, why? cause tomoro weekend la!
=x ( i sounded so lame =.= )
okay, lets move on...

School was alright today, messed around
during chem lab lesson =x did before le so
was randomly adding chemicals and substances x.x
haha, no worries, there's no explosion =P
But! the class broke a lot of test tubes leh!!
witnessed 2 out of dunno how many more..
but it was fun though. =]

nothing much else from school le...

So after school got Npcc!
and its Physical Training!! Yea!! w(-o- )w <----- retarded face!!
haha! damn AWESOME la!
lead by Inspector Zaki =D ( pt that is lead by him is always extream! )
so finally got a actual pt =]
did push-ups, crouches and jumping-jacks, in sets..
only dissapointing thing is the sets are only 20, 15, 10 =.=
so small number leh.... and they cant take it... x.x
when my batch was sec1 our set was already 50, 40,30 =D
they really, seriously need to train....
den de run was nice, like all the song when running, but they all soft =.=
cant do de sets, cant shout also... speechless..
sec1s are excused lar, but sec2 and sec3!!!!!!! ohmy....
so they all run 1 lap wan drop dead liao,
den we NCOs still crazy, ask for more laps,
only a few bravesouls join us =P
so Whoooo~ all the way.. haha
den another lap finish..
and we ask for another =.=
den ci say since we NCO want it so much, they wan only us to run...
and under 2mins.. only de guys run lar..
so yay! can run can le =P
practically no prob for us..
at least de sec4 still carry the standards =)

den got normal training, drills...
lets not talk about it... its too depressing.. x.x
so they ended early at 5pm..
den slacked and rested in Np room..
den went home...
thats pretty much all.. =]

=D

2010-02-25T20:51:00.002+08:00

alrights, here blogging again.
sorry to keep you waiting. =x

got quite some stuffs to blog,
i'll start by today yea..

* Erhem... * xD

Had Geog ct today,
and its not as bad as i expected it to be.
haha, was suppose to study de whole of last night!
but i freaking drop dead... again!! =x
but manage to study in all the free time i hav in sch.
with a few company =)

Oh!!
Chem ct result was release today!!
i got 18/25! =D
" not very good and also not very bad "
said by mrs fong x.x
well, true, but Hey!
i am not gonna stop here alright!!
i wanna score higher! =)

i won by 1/2 mark for overall =P
but cant think of any forfeit for the time being,
dun worry, got lots of time =D
right? bbq-ed pig! =P

hm, thats all for today i guess..

bbq-ed pig bathe so slow! =x
i am waiting leh!
( if you see this let me know yea xD )
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now for Wednesday, February 24, 2010 =)
super happy day i had!

After school, waiting for me at de canteen is :
CheeFong, ChenZi, JiaChyi and Freddrick!!

was so hype when we hang out, and when i say hype,
is totally on drugs! haha! jkjk. =P
they say wan watch movie, so all on den went to wm,
caught Piercy Jackson & The Lightning Thief,
not a bad film, very fantasy.. got to like the graphics =]
so overall is not bad lar, yea.
finish de movie around 7 plus, den we went to de nearest playground
to play =P
was damn funny like always lar!
Cf keep trying to do parkour den so funny lar!!
Me and Jc was all laughing. haha
totally hilarious! =)
but awesome time. den they all hav to leave by 8,
so Cf mrt, Me and Jc bus home together and Fred walked home =)
thanks for the wonderful times Brothers! =)
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day of mixed feelings...

2010-02-20T00:18:00.004+08:00

Finally got time to blog...
sorry for taking so long?
its been 6days or more if got count x.x
right Rachael? =]

Btw, got back Phys Common Test today,
I got 20/25 !
like finally past my phys =x
But~

i lost by 1 and 1/2 marks! D=
haha! so yea, now i owe a forfeit..

I will work harder nxt time!
so, Watch Out!! =D

hmmm... so finally got Npcc
& even better! Doing Physical Training!
super pumped up,
but in the end they do so little only... =.=

After everything ends,

bused to Sherilyn's house to meet up,
Sherilyn, CheeFong, Annie & her brother. ( sorry, cant remember de name x.x )
Cf and S was skating.. cause she just got her board..
so i am suppose to do my own stuffs there,
but totally no place suitable for me to do what i want. =(
End up only can do break fall after jumping a flight of stairs..
was fun though, Cf was messing around, we laughed our heart out,
plus to my surprise, Annie's brother tried to do breakfall as well!

counted very good already for starters... though i am 1 myself =x

felt very left out suddenly... like, cant get in to what they talking.. they do thier skating, i do my parkour... felf like total strangers... maybe its because they hang out when i am schooling ba... its been really quite some time till i finally spent time with them today... walked off for awhile.. thinking about it and its like i am not really close with my current classmates... so i felt pretty left out on both sides.. felt very very lousy...

so crap and play and laugh all the way till 9.30
had lots of fun...
den bus back to mac to hav dinner with Cf, i treat leh!
Meal and IceCream.. -.-
chat and chat, doing all the catching up with each other.
den he keep looking at the new shoes he bough, say its super nice.
haha! but its really nice.. ( cause got Red! ) =x
went home at 11.15, and reach at like 11.45 ~
clear up,
clean up,
did my stuffs...
and here i am..
yeap...

dun feel like sleeping..

feel so aimless suddenly...

TheEnd..

2010-02-10T19:13:00.000+08:00

I dun wanna think about it anymore......
its time to be free...
take flight...

"Till I Collapse"

2010-02-08T20:40:00.003+08:00

Cause sometimes you feel tired,

feel weak.. And when you feel weak,

you feel like you wanna just give up.
But you gotta search within you,

you gotta find that inner strength
and just pull that shit out of you

and get that motivation to not give up
and not be a quitter,

no matter how bad you wanna just fall flat on your face and collapse...

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....Stand Strong....

Flying without wings~

2010-02-03T19:35:00.002+08:00

~Flying without wings~

emptiness...

2010-02-03T19:32:00.002+08:00

i am nothing in your eyes..
nothing at all..
a fallen star.. a fallen love..
that cant be mended...
because you are not here anymore
to put things right again...
you will never know how much i love you...
you will never know how much i love you always...

because i am already nothing to you....

why does it still hurt so bad...

2010-02-03T19:12:00.003+08:00

why do i still go read all your post...
even when every post still bring pain to my heart..
even when every post still bring tears to my eyes..
why do i still care so much...
so uncontrollable...
so unstoppable...

you wont even come to read anymore..
cause its not worth your care..
you already got someone else...

why am i still holding on...
others hold on to a thin thread of hope..
i am holding on a invisible thread of hope..
or should i say.. its not even there at all..
i am lying to myself..
its so foolish... but i cant stop...
i cant... i cant take it...
i wanna run away..
but i cant..
i dun wanna stay still and not do anything..
but its all i can bring myself to...

whyamistillsoweak...
souselessasalways...
souselesslikeihavealwaysbeen...

~endlesssorrowwaltz~
~tearsdrownme~

яєαℓιту ιѕ α вιт¢н тнαт вα¢кѕтαвѕ уσυ ƒяσм тιмє тσ тιмє......

2010-02-02T13:47:00.002+08:00

well...
when's the last time i post?
how long hav it been...
didnt keep check...
but dosent matter..

You know people say,
" life is like a roller coaster , "
" there will be ups and downs.. "
de ride of my life now...
de end of the down is not in sight at all..
its like nv ending..
its like everything is in a mayhem..

Heartbreak & dissapointments...

so....
my best bro from pri sch called me yeserday in the morning
de one that i love playing badminton with..
you know who iam talking about..
he ask if he could stay over at my house..
he kinda ran away from home..
heard that the fight was bad...
its like evey house, every family hav their own problems..
so here he is at my house..
he should be here for 1 more night..
trying to talk him to going back..
he got 13 for o levels...
badminton team captain..

my problems seems endless...
an endless sorrow waltz..

got to go for now..
if possible should be coming here tonight..
yea..

doyouknowhowmuchimissyou.howmuchineedyou.
ithurtsobad...sobad...

thanks for nothing....

2010-01-15T02:36:00.004+08:00

" so you wan people to pity you now la? "

i didnt expect that coming from you hurts
so bad. wtf am i thinking? : " she will understand.. "
wow. and that question just came?!
how awesome is that?

yea, i do sound fierce. cause i am very anxious already..
i thought you, you of all will understand de most..
and also the thing is i am not getting any support
from my parents.. my dad dun even give a damn!
yea. maybe it dun matter one bit to you..
you wanna discuss.. i know. i wanna go to the same
school as much as you wanna go to the same school
as me.. but this concerns our future. i narrowed
my vision to ngeeann cause i dun hav de ability
to have so many options to choose from. and my standard
is RP, will you go? if i can go any poly i will gladly wait for
your decision and hit on my keyboard de course in the
school you choose and thats it.. but i cant.. i CANT...

really. i dunno what to say already....
just so really hurt...
its like being slashed,hacked and pierced..
enough.....
i really dun wanna cry anymore....

AssHoleFaceLife...

2010-01-08T01:34:00.002+08:00

wow... totally speechless..
thankyou~
my AssHoleFaceLife..

and i really dun wan to quarrel
with de people i love already..
it hurts so damn bad..
i thought only my parents
and thats it.
and i even believe talking to you
will make me feel better..
but i end up crying..

how awesome is that?
how awesome is my assholefacelife?
how awesome is assholefaceme?

thanks for everything..
i had enough...

2009-08-27T19:55:00.000+08:00

ifeelsostupid...whyamicrying.. why...
ineedyou.. butyouarenotthere.. whowillunderstand..
whowill...

Sigh...

2009-08-19T22:55:00.001+08:00

No one really knows…no one really knows how I feel… wonder if anyone even care…

Iam back! ~ =x

2009-08-14T01:05:00.003+08:00

Hey! Sorry for the dead blog..
so long nv blog le.. i'll blog once i am got the extra time =)
hmm.. its so late now..

today is dnt prep paper..
hope can get at least a pass. =x
but the 2hr really too long.. but too short for a-math students =x
after paper end went to meet Baby =)
haha, the present she gave me is so so ADORABLE!!!
(shall upload de pic of it nxt time)
haha, and its really really sweet =)

hehe,
Baby must have fell asleep le ba.
hmm.. Baby, Jiayou for your SS paper tomoro!
Iloveyou <3

shall blog again next time! Bye =)

Happy Birthday Baby!

2009-05-10T22:14:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday Baby <3

Sweet 16 =)

~may all your wish come true~

I Love You <3

RuJing, take care okay?

2009-04-14T23:34:00.008+08:00

Its RuJing's departure to Aus..
a big group of us,
classmates, exclassmates, band members, best brothers&sisters
gathered together after school to send
him off at the airport..
its touching to see so many turn up..
reach de airport after a long time..
here are some pics of us on our way there:

WaiKit =)Brothers in arms =) Brothers in arms 2 =)WaiKit, JiaChyi, Me =)

Reach our destination..

so we wait for the arrival of

our Guest of Honour.. =]

and again, some pics:

Melbourne QF10

after sometime,

RuJing and his family

finally reach..

Arrival of RuJing! =))

yea,he's a busy man =P

we had around 1hr

to have our memorable moments

together..

He have to check in at 6.30...

we gave presents,

took photos,

believe that most of us have

the mix feelings of

happiness and sadness...

felt like crying..

but hold on to it..

yet again,

some pics:

one word... BROTHERS

1e5/06 & 2e5/07

its like an blink of an eye,

its 6.30..

and dey start to sae,

" 6.30 le, RuJing gtg liao. "

" faster faster"

its like, so fast? =(

couldn't take it any more..

tears rolled down,

was de first to cry dere..

tear-ing and tear-ing..

drop by drop...

JaiChyi cried after being influence by me..

we started asking him for signature,

signature on everywhere!

shoes, arms, ex-link card, ic, shirt, tie..

was tear-ing and laughing..

pics:

signature on shoes...

then de last few final moments came,

lose control even more,

from tear-ing till crying..

kept walking by his side,

like dun wanna leave..

den he comfort me,

we took photo,

dey said: " weishan, dun cry, smile to de camera. "

Brothers forever!

and so,

all of us took our final photo of the day..

RUJING!

then have to check in le..

was crying more and more badly..

can see tears in others's eyes too..

we all dun wan him to leave...

we wave good-bye to him outside,

its like RuJing is a superstar.. =)
den when he went in and dissapear

from out view, we walk to de sits..

den i sat down beside JaiChyi,

bend down, and cried even worst..

WaiKit came over, hold me den keep ask me

dun cry anymore..

thanks so much bro..

and also BingChuan, Sengwei, YuJie, ChengYing...

after that we went to eat Popeye,

den we went home..

RuJing, remember to keep in contact with all of us..

we miss you loads..

best brother ever..
life will never be the same without you, brother...

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those that want the photo taken today, it is all uploaded in facebook..

goodnight...

misses <3

Farewell RuJing....

2009-04-14T21:53:00.003+08:00

Start from yesterday first ba..

Monday 13.04.09 :

skip all the blaa and jump to evening..

after de last parade training den

rushed home to prepare go stay over

at RuJing's house..

went with ChengYing..

wanna spent de last day with him.

he'll be going to Aus tomoro le.. hais..

so we went and stayed over..

we played, joked so much..

watched movies and laugh so much together..

went to Alif to eat roti prata at 12.30 plus,

a night to so remember..

went back watch movie till 3 plus..

den all KO le. haha

pics:

sleeping RuJing =)

Me under the blanket, dun wan wake up, veri sleepy, but need go school!

our pig's lair! xD